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white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="color: #333333; white-space: pre-wrap;">客观”却落入冷漠。在现场到底发生了什么，以及更重要的：</span><wbr style="color: #333333; line-height: normal; white-space: pre-wrap;"><span style="color: #333333; white-space: pre-wrap;">为什么？独立的披露与探讨不仅补充信息，亦是张力思考的起点。</span></em></div><div style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; overflow: hidden; color: #3e3e3e; font-size: 18px; min-height: 350px;"><fieldset style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px none; max-width: 100%; min-width: 0px; font-size: 14px; font-family: 微软雅黑; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; white-space: pre-wrap; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; white-space: pre-wrap; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br /></p></fieldset><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; 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color: #9bbb59; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><em>作者在纽约反警察游行中被拘捕，美联社图片</em></span><p> </p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">纽约4月29日下午6点，<wbr>人们从四面八方向市中心的联合广场集结，一场声援巴尔的摩、<wbr>抗议警察暴力的集会即将开始，对正越来越认同社会运动的我来说，<wbr>这样的活动当然不能错过。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">晚7点左右，联合广场北侧已经人山人海，水泄不通，<wbr>警察也早在附近集结严防。各种组织、<wbr>小组和个人在队伍中打着横幅，举着牌子，拿着扩音喇叭，<wbr>声讨种族主义、国家和警察暴力、资本主义、<wbr>表达对巴尔的摩的支持，以及对黑人青年弗莱迪·格雷的悼念。<wbr>集会在众人齐声一遍遍重复“All day, All night, We Will Fight for Freddie Gray”（每一天，每一夜，我们会为格雷战斗不息）<wbr>的口号声中达到高潮。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">7点20分左右，人群决定转向游行，<wbr>浩浩荡荡从百老汇大道沿第17大街往西去。很快，<wbr>警察用人墙和车墙封锁了前进的道路，一名警察提着广播喇叭，<wbr>反复大音量播放公告，要求人群撤离道路，退回人行道，<wbr>否则就以扰乱交通的罪名施行逮捕。警察是有备而来，非常强势, 多辆押送人员的大车已经等在周围。与警方一起做好准备的，<wbr>还有各路媒体，成群的记者举着照相、摄像机等待着，<wbr>天空中还盘旋着4架拍摄用的直升飞机。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">大规模的逮捕很快开始，凡和警方有任何肢体冲突、<wbr>哪怕只是抵抗推搡的，不服从警方命令的，都立即被捕。<wbr>我看到很多男性被按倒在地，然后被捆绑和扭送进警车，<wbr>还有一些并未反抗的人也被陆续铐起和扭走。本只是来“打酱油”<wbr>的我，没想到自己竟然很快成了其中一员。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">15分钟以后，警察成功将大部分人赶上人行道，并步步紧逼。<wbr>在百老汇和17街交界的路口，一名警员要求我们“<wbr>迅速退回人行道”，我看他态度和善，鬼使神差，弱弱地说了一句“<wbr>No”，没想到他竟然立即把我铐了起来! 一切发生得太突然，我与其说是受到惊吓，<wbr>不如说是震惊于此刻的荒唐，还来不及反应什么，<wbr>就被迅速扭送向警车的方向。事后从媒体发布的照片看到，<wbr>我当时是被3名警察牢牢钳住戴上手铐的。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">我的第一反应是：今晚恐怕回不去了，男友一定会很担心。<wbr>又开始怕被导师和学院领导知道，他们肯定会想：<wbr>这么个弱势的国际学生，不好好读书写论文，主动找什么乱子。<wbr>作为一个从小特别怕惹事的乖乖女，想到他们失望的神情，<wbr>我就压力山大。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">穿过长长的街道，快走到警车时，<wbr>路边的记者大声问我的名字和生日。我不清楚自己应不应该说，<wbr>这会不会加重我的罪名？“说出你的名字！<wbr>警方巴不得你成为无名氏，<wbr>他们希望别人看不到你们为正义做的这些！”<wbr>警车旁一位黑人兄弟对我喊道。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">一名看上去是高级警官的白老男人走过来把我的手机从裤兜里拿出。<wbr>我喊：“你们要怎么处理我的手机？”他很温和地说：“别担心，<wbr>我们把它放到你的背包里。”我说手铐太紧，<wbr>逮捕我的警员就松了一下塑料手铐。<wbr>他们的态度极大地减轻了我的恐惧，<wbr>我感觉他们无意也不敢对我们施暴，就是例行公事地终止我们的“<wbr>捣乱”。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">警车上已经有3名戴着手铐的女孩，随后陆续又送进一些人，最终，<wbr>我们这个车上载了11名“犯人”，6女5男，<wbr>什么颜色皮肤的都有，都是年轻人。 聊天中得知车上其他5名女孩都是纽约各学校的本科生，<wbr>她们一致认为，最晚明天早上肯定也会把我们放了，<wbr>最多也就是交一些罚金。她们的淡定也减轻了我的不安，<wbr>我们互相安慰支持，互相蹭着对方的肩膀，<wbr>把飘在脸上的头发抹到一边。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">警车晃晃悠悠地启动，很快到了市政厅附近的警局，<wbr>然后不明原因地在路边停了大约40分钟。我们逐渐变得焦躁，<wbr>胳膊僵硬，手腕疼痛。模仿另一个女孩，大着胆子，<wbr>我也偷偷用铐着的双手从背后掏出手机，给男友发了简短的消息。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"></p><fieldset style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px none; max-width: 100%; min-width: 0px; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><h2><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;">B、号子里疲惫饥渴6小时</span></h2></fieldset><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">漫长的等待之后，我们终于被一个个卸了下来。<wbr>逮捕我的警察弗兰克认领了我。他解开我的手铐，<wbr>带我上缴了所有物品，领我报了道，还拍了照片，<wbr>那是一张我和他的合影，表明我的案子就由他负责了。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">看到他很和善，我就问他为什么要抓我，他说：“<wbr>让你们退回人行道，谁让你们不退。”随后安慰：“没什么大问题，<wbr>不会录你们的指纹，应该是过一些手续，就会放了你们。”</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">我上缴了鞋带，被搜了身，就被投入了警局最里面的一个关押间。<wbr>与其他已经几乎填满了的号子不同，这间一个人都没有，<wbr>我被发配过来或许是因为我一直在要求上厕所。其实，<wbr>后来随着这间号子里的人越来越多，大家也只好当众排便了。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">号子又小又阴冷，有一个长形的铁凳，冰凉。很快，<wbr>曾与我同车的一个女孩也被分来了。她叫尼可，<wbr>在纽约市立大学亨特学院读书，是个激进分子。<wbr>她说自己16岁时被抓过一次，但是因为她是白人女性，<wbr>所以量刑很轻，她说，美国人有一种迷思，<wbr>认为白人女性总是无辜的。 尼可在游行中和朋友一起用胳膊链成人墙抵挡警察，<wbr>最终被捉住推倒在地，脸上还有轻微划伤。<wbr>她说一个男性朋友被反推在地，可恶的警察还用脚踩了他的头。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">一个半小时后，我们迎来了活泼开朗的黑人姐姐阿什利。<wbr>她当时站在人行道上，听到一声“捉住她”，就被向后撕扯着长发，<wbr>铐上了双手。她12岁的儿子在旁边吓哭了。<wbr>好在警官允许她把钥匙给了孩子，并答应护送他到地铁站。我问她：<wbr>“你什么也没做，为什么不反抗？”她说, 很多黑人男孩害怕警察，总是看到警察就跑，<wbr>反而招致更暴力的对待甚至枪击，向儿子示范被逮捕时应如何反应，<wbr>这就是最好的机会。阿什利性格开朗，爱大笑，爱说话，<wbr>号子里立即热闹起来，没那么无聊了。<wbr>据说我们有权要求拨打一个家庭电话，<wbr>她向每一个路过的警察要求打电话给儿子，一再被敷衍，<wbr>最终也没有打成。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">号子里没有钟，我们只能偶尔向路过的警察问一下时间。<wbr>大约1点的时候，新学院（编注：New School，一所有左派倾向的大学）20岁的本科生、<wbr>白人姑娘莉莉进来了，<wbr>新的话题和故事让我们一起又打发了一些时间。莉莉说她第二天10 点有课，不过被捕是一个很好的缺课理由。我很震惊，<wbr>问她新学院鼓励学生参与社会运动吗？<wbr>这在哥伦比亚大学是无法想象的。她说当然，<wbr>新学院是个很激进的学校。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">2点左右，一个也叫阿什利的20岁的白人女孩进来了。<wbr>她显然是所有人中最激进的，染着彩虹七色的短发，满口“<wbr>fucking”、“fuck up”。她是1点钟被捕的，原来集会还在继续，<wbr>我们惊叹于人们的坚持。她当时有和警察对抗，而且破口大骂，<wbr>结果头被抵到了墙上，不仅脖子被扭伤，手背也擦伤了三块皮。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">实在是一望无际地无聊，没有任何可看的东西、可做的事。<wbr>或许应该找一些平常困惑的问题来思考，不至于那么浪费时间，<wbr>但等待的焦急让人无法静下心来，我们常常趴在号子的铁栏杆边，<wbr>紧贴着，斜着往外看，鼻子恨不能都压扁了，<wbr>看是不是还有人进来或离开。每来个警员，我们都要兴奋一下，<wbr>希望打听些消息，顺便打发点时间。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">号子里的饮水机坏了， 5个小时里我们始终没有水喝，要了多次，也没有人理。<wbr>弗兰克来找过我两次，问一些补充性的信息，每次都说“<wbr>你很快就能出去”，有一次甚至说“几分钟之后就能出去”，<wbr>然而每一次承诺都变成了两个小时，我开始不相信他了。<wbr>他一直很友善，而且长得有点像的我姐夫，<wbr>我感觉自己简直把他当成了亲人，感激又亲切。<wbr>我很快意识到自己可能得了斯德哥尔摩综合症，<wbr>为什么要去感激一个逮捕自己的、在暴力机关供职的人呢？</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">两点半，我终于困倦疲惫得不行了。这时，<wbr>警察开始发牛奶和起司三明治，我们觉得不妙，<wbr>发吃的说明我们一时半会走不了。<wbr>5个人中只有二号阿什利吃了三明治，她说：“<wbr>我吃这么难吃的东西的唯一原因是我快要昏过去了，<wbr>但我不想昏过去。”</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"></p><fieldset style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px none; max-width: 100%; min-width: 0px; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><h2><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;">C、释放也要排队</span></h2></fieldset><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">3点多了，我正坐在地上昏昏沉沉，狱友告诉我，尼可要走了。<wbr>她自己也不敢相信，以为自己第二天还得被弄到法庭呢。<wbr>我在浑浑噩噩间和她道别，但同时开始担外国人身份会让我麻烦，<wbr>对释放突然失去了信心。一号阿什利姐姐大声安慰我，<wbr>不允许我悲观。过了十多分钟，弗兰克警官来释放我了，<wbr>我简直不敢相信。我和剩下的三个姐妹一一道别，因为没有纸笔，<wbr>也没办法留联系方式。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">出来后，我被再次戴上手铐，这次是铁的，硌得手生疼。<wbr>我被要求靠墙站了一大会儿，说是因为规定一次只能释放一个人，<wbr>要等前面的人走。弗兰克在我旁边，<wbr>他身后是一长队拿着材料的警察。<wbr>我这才明白为什么办手续花了那么长时间，<wbr>因为每到一处都是无尽的排队。我意识到，<wbr>犯人释放之前警察也无法离开，看着他们困倦、无聊、无力的脸，<wbr>突然觉得他们就像奴工被这个庞大复杂的官僚体系折磨，<wbr>我们只在这里一天，而他们是天天都在这里经历这些。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">终于，快4点的时候，我被押到门口，解下了手铐。<wbr>看到大厅前台那两台破旧的电脑，<wbr>和拿着材料趴在前台在排队的警员，<wbr>我明白为什么处理的速度如此之慢，<wbr>也不知这对我们和警察都是极大折磨的程序要进行到何时，<wbr>在我后面还有至少100多人，<wbr>前台旁边的一个大号子里还关着二三十个男人。排队领取物品时，<wbr>前面的女孩问弗兰克他手臂上的两道杠什么意思，<wbr>他说一道杠代表工龄五年。想到他已经在这里十多年，<wbr>不由得替他感到无奈，在这里待一晚我都觉得窒息。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">领到背包和鞋带，我正式被释放了。弗兰克说，<wbr>只要我在接下来的6个月不再犯事，这次逮捕就不会记录在案。<wbr>我说我从来没犯过事，他说：“很好，继续保持，<wbr>我想你也不想再经历一次了吧。”</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">路口有一群人迎上来，来自一个服务抗议者的公益法律服务机构。<wbr>他们准备了水和食物，还给我一张写着联系方式纸条，<wbr>说他们会提供免费的法律服务。天很冷，<wbr>看到他们守在那里迎接一个个被释放的人，觉得他们真让人敬佩。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">我向地铁走去，手机里满满的是朋友们的邮件、短信、电话和信息，<wbr>凌晨5点，我回到家。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"></p><fieldset style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px none; max-width: 100%; min-width: 0px; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><h2>D、反思：国家暴力就是要让人“长记性”</h2></fieldset><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">虽然负责我的警官比较和善，也没有遭受审讯和虐待，<wbr>但我还是真切体会到了国家暴力的威慑。<wbr>国家以管理公共空间为名限制集会和游行的范围，<wbr>但与改变几百年的系统性种族暴力相比，<wbr>妨碍几条街道的交通算得了什么？但是，仅仅以妨碍交通的名义，<wbr>警察就可以荷枪实弹地逮捕甚至殴打手无寸铁的抗议者。<wbr>被捕后我们完全失去自由，被限制在阴冷冰凉的小铁屋里，<wbr>没有人理，没有水喝，没有食物，没地方睡觉，无聊、困倦、饥饿、<wbr>口渴，即便我们什么罪也没有犯，即便我们恰恰是最合格的公民。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">在经历这些折磨的过程中，最强烈的想法是：我再也不要坐牢了，<wbr>后悔当时忤逆警察， 让自己落到这个地步。这个权力体系是如此强势，<wbr>而公民是那么渺小，意识到这个现实，真让人沮丧。然后，<wbr>我开始明白抓捕和监禁的用意：用折磨让你长记性，让你胆怯变乖，<wbr>再也不敢挑战这个体系，于是，符合国家意愿的秩序得以确立巩固。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">因为太渴望自由，我急于洗白自己，对警察一再强调说“No”<wbr>只是开玩笑，我什么都没做。同被关押的尼可有直接冲撞警察，<wbr>当负责我的警官说我会很快出去，而尼可那边毫无消息时，<wbr>我庆幸自己“罪行较轻”，并且竟然有了一丝得意。这种想法一出，<wbr>我特别警惕:我这是在庆幸自己仍是一个不正义体系中的“良民”<wbr>吗？不敢挑战这个体系为何值得得意？</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"></p><fieldset style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px none; max-width: 100%; min-width: 0px; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><h2>E、反思：去政治化“关心”消解正义</h2></fieldset><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">被释放后，<wbr>我发现自己被捕的照片和视频竟然上了至少三家知名媒体，<wbr>同学们正在互相传看。我的第一反应是感觉“丢人”——<wbr>不得不承认，我没有完全摆脱中国人赋予抗议被捕这种事的羞耻感。<wbr>因为平日里一副高洁正直、对弱势群体权益热情执着的样子，<wbr>我在中国学生群体中是另类，视频中的我惊吓、绝望、脸色苍白，<wbr>想到他们猎奇和幸灾乐祸的评论，我真想躲起来。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">果然各种“关心”向我砸来：“我们担心死你了”、“<wbr>希望你的签证身份不会受到影响”、“万一要交很多保释金怎么办”<wbr>……恰恰是这些夸张的担忧让我充满心理压力，好像我真的犯了罪。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">形成鲜明对比的是我的美国同学和老师。<wbr>去年助教课上的学生莉萨在电视上看到后立即写邮件问候，<wbr>听说我没事又说：“请接受我对你昨晚所为的崇高敬意。”<wbr>一位教授把我拉进办公室问我是否有受到伤害，并且说：“<wbr>我们为你感到骄傲！在我们心中，你就是一个英雄。”<wbr>连一向胆小怕事的乖乖女韩国同学都非常诚恳地说：“<wbr>我实在太为你感到骄傲了！”与此同时，<wbr>一个全国性工会的朋友和律师积极帮助我确保不会留下任何案底。<wbr>这些理解、肯定和帮助，让我感觉安全又安心。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">几天来，美国同学和老师重复的是：<wbr>发生在那个黑人男孩身上的事太可恶了，<wbr>我很高兴看到你也参加了抗议。而中国同学除了强调抗议的危险性，<wbr>暗示我逞能差点闯祸之外没有别的，既不谈事件的重点——<wbr>种族主义和警察暴力，也不对是否应该参加游行表态。<wbr>一个朋友评论说：“这种去政治化的关心，将事件变成纯个人问题，<wbr>和对你摔了一跤、丢了个钱包的慰问差不多。”<wbr>这句话说到了点子上，面对中国同学的慰问，<wbr>我最不舒服的就是将抗议“去意义化” 。我仿佛被这样一种价值审判：唯一重要的是安全，如果闯了祸，<wbr>让自己陷于危险，你就犯了错，和真犯了罪的人没有分别。<wbr>以安全的名义，一切正义之事的意义都可以被名正言顺地抹杀。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"></p><fieldset style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; border: 0px none; max-width: 100%; min-width: 0px; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><h2>F、反思：政治冷漠没有未来</h2></fieldset><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">这让我想到游行人群的大致构成：黑人白人占大部分，<wbr>拉美人和其他棕色皮肤的人也有不少，<wbr>唯独缺少亚洲人尤其是东亚人。想必这也是在那么多被捕者中，<wbr>我被选中为媒体特写的原因：一个黄皮肤的青年学生，<wbr>而且还是女性。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">5月1日国际劳动节，纽约人再次走上街头为同一主题游行，<wbr>因为是法定节日，这次游行是合法批准的。队伍经过中国城，<wbr>吸引了很多中国移民看热闹，在他们不解的眼光中，<wbr>游行者大概像耍猴的一样。最戏剧性的是，<wbr>一位中年女性向众人破口大骂，因为妨碍了她过马路。<wbr>这些反应不禁让人痛心。美国之所以成为移民的理想之地，<wbr>是因为相对而言它尊重人权尊重以及相对民主和平等，<wbr>而这些对弱势群体尤其生死攸关的制度特征，<wbr>正是一波波社会运动的结果。可悲的是，<wbr>远离政治依然是许多受益于正义斗争的中国移民笃信的人生准则，<wbr>而不远离政治的人，要么被视做神经病、捣乱分子，要么被讥笑“<wbr>太天真”。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">不参与抗议对黑人暴力的社会运动，<wbr>还与流行在中国人中的种族主义有关。华裔在美国属于“模范移民”<wbr>，是模仿白人中产阶级最成功的移民群体，<wbr>他们往往对处于最底层的黑人充满优越感，“<wbr>黑人穷是因为他们又懒又笨”是很多人对美国黑人“失败”<wbr>的自信解释。“安全第一”<wbr>的人生信条将黑人区妖魔化成不能踏入一步的雷区，<wbr>拥有3000多名华人学生学者的哥大，正好与黑人区哈莱姆毗邻，<wbr>在中国学生学者中，流传着这样一条找房的黄金准则：<wbr>125街以南，同等条件分别位于125街南北的房间，<wbr>月租可以相差400到700美元。恰巧我就住在125街以北，<wbr>于是常会被问候同情。在中国居住过多年、<wbr>也有很多中国朋友的同学莱尼曾对我说：“你有没有发现，<wbr>很多中国人特别种族主义？”<wbr>作为每天在哥大这种精英富人俱乐部和哈莱姆之间往返的人，<wbr>我怎能没有发现？</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">在过去三年中，我在美国学习社会工作专业，<wbr>同时被这里的社会运动洗礼。<wbr>上世纪六七十年代的民权运动浪潮过去了三十多年，<wbr>成果正在逐渐被磨灭，基于种族、阶级、<wbr>性别等等级制的不公在加剧，美国社会急需变革，<wbr>我和同学都预感到，新一波的社会运动在酝酿。</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><span style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; color: #3f3f3f; font-size: 14px; word-wrap: break-word !important;">“五一” 那天，再次走在游行的队伍中，喊着口号，有那么一刻，<wbr>我万分希望这发生在中国。如果继续污名政治参与、<wbr>嘲笑为正义呐喊的人，<wbr>我们中国人还能不能有生活在公义社会的一天？</span></p><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; white-space: pre-wrap; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px; max-width: 100%; word-wrap: break-word !important;" /></p><blockquote style="margin: 0px; padding: 0px 0px 0px 10px; border-left-width: 3px; border-left-style: solid; border-left-color: #dbdbdb; max-width: 100%; font-family: \’Helvetica Neue\’, Helvetica, \’Hiragino Sans GB\’, \’Microsoft YaHei\’, 微软雅黑, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 28.7999992370605px; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><p style="padding: 0px; color: #333333; max-width: 100%; clear: both; min-height: 1em; white-space: pre-wrap; word-wrap: break-word !important;"><br /></p></blockquote></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div>